Last week we had a blizzard here in Boston and the only reasonable response to that was obviously to bake chocolate chip cookies. I mean we needed sustenance in order to survive, right? :-) Now, those of you who know me, understand, that me actually adding the butter and eggs in to the pre-made mix provided by my friend Ilana and then turing the oven on and baking them mostly by myself (of course my husband Brian, the king of the kitchen helped :-) was a huge accomplishment worthy of accolades all by itself. But in my moment of glory and chocolate chip happiness I not only made these delicious morsels of happiness, I made sure that the cookies I ate, calculated to be 230 calories per cookie were duly allotted for in my daily number so that post blizzard I could continue my life in synergy at my ideal weight. No harm, no foul, cookies loved and blizzard survived. Yesterday, we had yet another snow day...... and herein lies the lesson in really choosing your Life in Synergy....
Yesterday's storm did not come with the same, its a great snow day mojo. I was frustrated about having to close the studio, worried about what people would think about me for not being open, bored with sitting around and watching tv and in general, pretty unhappy. I know, chocolate chip cookies.....they worked last week. Do you see the difference? Last week, choosing the cookie was fun, joyous, easily allotted for and appreciated. This week, I was trying to use the cookie to solve my frustrations and problems. Down went the cookie at 6am.... and then the ravenous hunger set in. I could not get enough food after that. Each entry in to my food log giving me anxiety as my number quickly disappeared. Perhaps a cup of herbal tea will do the trick, no, a walk on the treadmill, no, more bad tv.....no. I just wanted more cookies. I genuinely believed that I was starving. As my calories remaining for the day reached the 0 mark, my stomach was aching, my frustrations were high, this was a Life in Synergy moment.....my opportunity to choose arrived.
The choice; was eating another cookie in that moment going to lead me closer to MY LIFE IN SYNERGY. Would I wake up today feeling great, eager to get back to work, excited to work with my clients, anxious to share, teach, inspire and achieve. I knew the answer was no, but the argument raged in my head for a solid hour or two. Craving the cookie was just a negative pattern I was creating and literally feeding. Thinking I was starving was just my bodies way to help me to create this pattern. Remember, your body knows that whatever you ask of it is for its survival. It was sending those cravings at volume 10!
I know that this sounds silly, but it was a really tough decision NOT to have the cookie, my brain was working over time creating reasons that the cookie was necessary. I work hard, it is just a cookie, I deserve it, these are arguments we have all given ourselves. But what are they really arguments for? I can honestly say that there have been many times when I did not choose me, that I gave in, that I thought the cookie was important than my ultimate happiness and success, which of course lead to days and sometimes weeks of a downward spiral. But last night, I chose me. Last night, I grabbed an extra glass of water and went to sleep. Last night, I made a Life in Synergy creating self-first decision.
The result, I woke up this morning so excited to write this blog, something I have not wanted to do for a while, I got on the scale and it read 124. (you all know, my weight is usually 125 :-) I had some fun emails to read and in general I started my daily feeling great, oh yeah and NOT hungry.
There is so much power in choosing you! When you make the choice to put your self first, to really make decisions based upon what will bring you happiness today and tomorrow, you send a ripple out that can help effect not only yourself but others. Maybe, one of you reading this will choose you, inspiring the next and the next and the next. Today, choose you. Today, decide, ask yourself, "Will this make me happy tomorrow?" Will this be another paver in my road, that I build each day, that ultimately, leads to my Life in Synergy. Every decision counts, every decision helps and moves us along. Choosing the cookie last week and not choosing the cookie this week both served that purpose. This is your life, this is your body, this is your dream. Live it fully!